becoming a feminine ideal requires just the right amount of insecurity, don’t skimp

 .. 2012 ReWrite

and what do you think is underneath? Under the surface that could be removed, would YOU find satisfaction in completely fresh skin, a starry smile, and a chest that inspires a volley of prayers, makes the world crawl under its radiance, would you see a happy ending sunset, long pink boas of cotton batting, arching, through the sky, or would there be nothing at all, even less than capillaries and lack of symmmetry, a crater lower than disappointment, mutations failing to turn into gold and becoming something completely different, something no one has ever seen, the desolation of a body deserted by itself, slabs of meat that you dont dare name, I really dont know but it couldnt stop there, oh no, not yet, you’d always find something else to peel away layer by layer, some part of a body to lose, deport, an anorexic hollowing out her belly, her tomb, and dont start thinking it’s the exception, because it isnt, millions of women make a career out of their body, an art out of food,  mastery of their mouth on pieces of fruit so small they make you cry, and above all, there’s the message they send to others, take a good look at me and know how fat you are, look what’s hanging under your ass, look what’s slipping off your sides and jiggling to the rhythmn of your walk, how disgusting, being that heavy can’t be endured if you are going to go on living, women often have too much of what they have, they are too much what they are, nailed to their sex and what is said about it, hopeless at reinventing their history or conceiving of life outside of fashion magazine polls, continually alienated from what they think they should be, bimbos who have orgasms when they’re supposed to, bimbos with such and such a waist measurement and such and such a hairdo, who dont want anything and always want more.

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One Response to becoming a feminine ideal requires just the right amount of insecurity, don’t skimp

  1. Bridgette says:

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